It’s been ages since I last updated! My mom said “ you know you haven’t updated your website in awhile”- and that was the sign that I really do have to update..

So many things took place since then.. for starters I am much much better.. I am coping. Isn’t it funny how one day you feel your life is ending and in a tidy bit of time and patience you realize it’s just beginning? Humans are so pliable. We can cope with almost anything if we put our minds to it.

In the past couple of weeks I’ve also realized how blessed I am with my family and friends. After I posted my last update everyone just rushed to the rescue. Next thing you know, there were people at my doorstep. They took Ahmed away from me, prepared a bubble bath and let me rest- and when I thought it wouldn’t get better than that- it was followed by a whole spa treatment. You can’t imagine how good that feels. I haven’t had a bath or did any girly stuff for that matter in ages. I’ve actually learnt how to have an express shower of 2 minutes. There was a song that was haunting me and still is- West Side Story’s – I feel pretty.
Anyways my family and friends used to take shifts at looking after him and for some reason I didn’t mind at allllllll.. I think it hit me- I am not wonder women, nor should I be. It felt for once that my only job was to feed him =) a milk making machine.

I’ve grasped on a lot of skills these days too. I can now type with one hand. I can actually do almost anything with one hand. I’ve been spending most of my time reading or watching movies. I’ve started reading to him. Check the baby Einstein collection. He enjoys looking at different objects and colors but he can only focus for a few seconds though.
It’s amazing how you can see a personality shape up within a lil person. Now he has a mood of his own. He makes faces and tries to imitate me which is sweet. He still hasn’t smiled a social smile yet. I mean he only smiles when he’s asleep. So I am waiting for that milestone to take place. He is also used to being carried all the time. Urrrgh now that was nice at the beginning but I am trying to change it. just when I place him in his crib he starts hiss waaaaaa symphony. I’ll try to fix it.
The weird thing is- here goes.. there are certain hours where he starts screaming and I am also clueless on how to deal with him. Between 9 pm and midnight- he just starts screaming and crying and no matter what I do- It doesn’t seem to soothe him. When I hand him over to anyone else he quiets down. I mean he’ll have to be swayed, patted and walked around the house for that to work. The thing is by 6 pm I am too tired to actually try and carry him. he feels too heavy by then.

Which reminded me! I’ve been to the Doc for a follow-up appointment and guess what- he’s feeding properly. He’s gaining enough weight and that is remarkable. I am very proud of myself. … and they said I couldn’t survive breastfeeding!
So people- I’ve survived! Yes I did.. I am getting the hang of this. It isn’t easy but patience is the key.

All PSP Lovers

The web browser is now available. Access your wireless network and get your PSP updated. You’ll probably have to download 2 updates if you’ve never updated before. It works like a charm and it really looks good. Just a bit slow and downside is you can view pop up windows. I am still trying to find a way around it.


Last but not least.. Happy Birthday Peachy.. May all your dreams come true.. You are an angel and I hope our friendship lasts forever..

Kitten Thank you for the beautiful flowers- they're totally my style and very compatible with the site.. By the way, Ahmed refuses to go to sleep without being rocked! and I still can't rock him the way you do.. HELP! ;)

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